Mtv is so bad for today's youth, so bad for mankind period. I wish it could be banned and fined for dirty content.
Let the world know you don't like MTV either.
Mtv is so bad for today's youth, so bad for mankind period. I wish it could be banned and fined for dirty content.
Hey I really love you all, but there are a lot of you on my f list that I only talk to once a month or less.
I hope you wont be too hurt.
And this was on my floor two doors down from my apt.
This is it!: this: http://www.abcactionnews.com/mediacente
I swear to God, all the looneys (the mentally retarded) people here are all off their marbles today, they are super bizarre today. I can NOT take it. I'm going to go out to lunch and then come home and stay in my apartment and hiding under the rug.
This place was originally for physically handicapped and elderly only. But then now they have been letting "mentally challenged", and insane people in here, Yes I said insane people. I don't feel safe here anymore.
But I can't go live at mom's now that mom is a retard too with her alzheimers, and dementia.
And I have NO intention of being homeless. So the hell with the insane retards I will just stay in my apartment and NOT come out unless I'm going to get mail or going in and out of the building.
This has become a bloody Hotel California here.
Just pitiful the 'things' management allows to live her now, truly I'm ashamed to be here and associated with this hell place. But see above as to why I can't move.
August is a F up so far. I'm un happy.
I am worse, that walnut size swelling on the right side of my cheek is now banana size and going all up and down both sides of my face and it throbs like crazy. My kidneys still feel like a mule kicked them my belly feels like a soccer ball My legs are giving out. My vision is clouding over.
I will insist he hospital me tomorrow when I see him.
Now to me myself I do not care if I live or die because I feel so bad, but I want to live for Marie and I want to live for all of you.
So I guess if you still want me around I will try for your sakes not my own.
I love you all.
Did you all watch the I love New Your reunion? Tango withdrew his proposal to Tiffany. That don't make sense.
Thanks to the wonderful xchristabelx for this nice new Friends Only banner.
Well the bus ride to the x-ray place went ok. The x ray it self was ok. The techs were a little rude though. Talking at me some of the time instead of talking TO me. Like this "oh look at her... this" or "she ... that!" then they began whispering to each other about me and I heard the words "safe out by herself like that" That irked me ~~! I so wanted to tell them F off but I did not! Proud of me you are aren't you?
Then again since this is what I look like now, can you really blame them for thinking I'm not safe?:http://i100.photobucket.com/album
But when I got home I played Up Words with my best friend so it's ok. And Idol is on tonight... So I'm fine now. But I was really angry earlier.
Many heart issues including - Mitral Valve prolapse, Tachycardia and Arrhythmia, atrial fibrillation, palpitations/mummer, and others.
I have several physical health issues, I have face and body deformities. Slurred and odd very low deep sounding speech/voice.
Many skin Cancer's. I lost nearly my entire scalp to skin cancer and had a skin graft from my leg to replace the lost skin, so I have little or no hair. I never had much hair to begin with.
I've had one breast lump removal. No cancer in it. All the women in my Mom's family including Mom herself have had breast removals or died from those cancers. Mom is still alive. As is one of her sisters, (out of several before I've lost interest and lost track of, but I rarely speak with them so I don't know if or what cancers they have, or had.
And actually I don't talk to my Mom anymore either she has Alzheimer's and Dementia and does not recognize me anymore. She is being well taken care of though. Buy other cousins and her local sister. I am not mentally able to deal with her in her current state.
I had hydrocephalus/meningitis as an infant, but no longer have that now, however my skull, face and head are misshapen "weird looking" because of this.
And, as for my body general frailty and weakness. I bruise easily, and have had several bouts with dislocated joints. I've had broken bones cracked ribs from big sneezes. I have 5 fractured vertebrae And dislocations from my break dancing days.
I don’t like to go to doctors much anymore. 48 years of examining, experimenting and embarrassing questions and procedures, pain and anxiety I've had it! I’m SO done with doctors now, and hey if I die well then I die so be it. I just can't handle more tests, surgeries, enough is enough.
I will NOT go out of my way to eat Healthy Foods. I only eat red meat, white rice, Mexican food Chinese food and ice cream, fast food, and drink club soda. I never do ANY any Dieting or Exercising. In fact I think 2009=2010 will be my last years, and I'm ok with that.
I'm tired of these issues and am willing to "go" in my sleep any time now.
But I tend to not do doctors visits much anymore, because well just because...I’m SO done with doctors now, and hey if I die well then I die so be it.
48 years of examining, experimenting and embarrassing questions and procedures, pain and anxiety I've had it! I just can't handle more tests, surgeries, enough is enough. I may live for quite a long time still, or I may die at any time. But that is my decision and mine alone.
I have had it suggested to me that I change my eating habits and start an exercise program but what point is there in that? Living longer with all those restrictions is not worth living longer for. I'd rather enjoy my life as it is and pass on in my own terms, than to suffer and be miserable having the things I like taken from me. And being forced to eat or do things I hate. I need to do what is right for me not what other people want for me.
I know I am homely and I don't say that for sympathy, I say it because it's the truth.
As for Job... there is none! I've tried in the past and I don't handle being told what to do, say think and so on. I got too upset. I was never able to keep up with other people working with me either. So I am on Social Security and other Government help. I live in Goodwill (low rent) housing for the disabled. I'm a writer, artist, poet, sloth!
And YES I do live on my own, and do not need a caretaker or assistant. That is what my cat is for.
Being single and living a life without sex is a great joy to me. I am a female but, I guess lately I consider myself both male and female. I'm a bisexual asexual. I do not date(anymore) because, I hate sex, it is gross bad and dirty, (for me anyway) if you other people like it congratulations! I also don't like crowds, or social activities.
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Ok, it's Saturday morning ok. And at 8:30 in the morning the fat ass fucking cunt that lives a floor above me is playing the piano. At 8:30 in the goddamn fucking morning. That fat whore cunting bitch. I'd love to have her evicted, and arrested too. But no....
I'm a very very nice person and I'm going to let it go.
I was nice enough not to bang on my ceiling *her floor* with a baseball bat like I usually do with nosy neighbors. That she is playing the piano and moving that piano seat around and making scraping noises is so beyond uncalled for. What a selfish fucking cunt!!!!!!! And before that her or her company were hammering and shit and that was before 8:30 am. God mother fucinkg damn it.
It's bad enough I live in a place that is letting (schizophrenic bi polar autistic mental retards with their mood disorders),move in. And all those names is NOT name calling that is their disorders) now I have to put up with so much with them fucking in human pieces of shit. No I don't consider sane or safe they are dangerous and freaky. The guys just sit and stare and stare and stare and stare and walk up close to us gals in the community room and brush up against us 'accidentally' And you cant say or poor them they are retards and cant help it they don't know what they are doing. That is utter bullshit that man knows exactly what he is doing and he does it on purpose he wants to try and instigate us into yelling at him or provoke us into calling him names so he can call the manager on us and get us in trouble. Hes actually very smart for a retard. Ohhhh grrrrrrrrrr arrrggghhhhh. Retards don't belong with us folks with other *otherwise intelligent and sane* folks with the physical handicaps. He and his retard buddies who are also sexually perverse people belong in a home for just retards not with us who are intelligent, articulate and independent and I'm so fucking mad right now I could scream.
It is sooooo beyond not fair to me and the others here. They dont deserve to be in our presence.
The whole truth of it is I no loonger feel happy or safe in my own home. I can't move because I can't afford it because I am (physcally) handicapped myself. And I can not complain to management because I will be evicted and again I can't move and if I did I have no where to live if I do move. I refuse to live with family. I need my indipendence! My life sucks. I wish Id get a brain tumer and die!
So I took a long catnap and I feel a lot better and less angsty. And you know what. Let people think what they want of me, and let them label me however they want eff them. I know I am a wonderful beautiful miraciously unique individual and for the people that can't love me eff them. I know Is wonderful and that's all there is to it. If other people dont think so its their loss.
My name is not purrrfect after all No Human Is Perfect even me but I'm damn close.
You may all worship me at will now.
I dont know who Will is though. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL
I'm feeling better.
Skip-bo is the coolest card game around. Today "A" brought me my own deck of them.
I'm over Charmed, it's just not good anymore, IMHO. No offense to the people who are still fans.
Ok I need this font just a hair thicker and bigger I cant see it.
Back to Charmed I am really anxious for the episode where Cole and Prue make an apperance when will it be do any of you know?
I am over my anger about the chineese delivery now. I was really mad a while ago. But now I'm ehhhh it was no big issue. I had good KFC chicken and I cooked my own rice.
Yay for me and my calmness now.
Stupid stupid stupid chineese take out place.
DONT GET ME WRONG THIS IS NOT A RACIST RANT THIS IS A ONE TIME BITCH FEST ABOUT A STUPID F'ING EMPLOYEE AT A STUPID F'ING ESTABLISHMENT
I orderd fried scallops 2 egg rolls 10 fried crab wontons and shrimp fried rice. I told them delivery the order was just 10 bucks
after waiting for over a god damn f'ing HOUR!!!!!!!! we called back and they go "Oh weeee sooooo sollly (sorry) we think you was going to come get it" We no know you want delivery" So I said well I did and I effing said so when I ordered it you moron."
them "we sorry you want it now we deliver now"
me "no cancel the goddamn order I dont want it now im to damn hungry to wait. I will cook my own god damn dinner."
them "we sorry"
me: "not as sorry as I am" then I slam the phone back on the hook!
Im so goddamn mad. Well I saved my effing money I guess that is a good thing.
Stupid damn people stupid stupid stupid
and now i just got a effing sales/survey call and I am on the goddamn "no call list"
he goes my name is **** and Im calling on behalf of national...
I only let him get that far before I say go eff youself mutha f**** and slam the phone again.
I WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!